The Greeneyed Monster

What a way to begin a blog...

well.

My name is Kamilla and I'm gonna treat this blog like a diary sort of...
so I guess I'll get right to it.
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I't has been a long time since I've felt like this.
I hate feeling like this.
I hate this feeling!
Like its burning in my throat, in my heart, in my stomach.
The feeling is jealousy...
...and I can't bear it.
And its totally unnecessary and irrational.
Well not compleatly, everything has its reasons.
But I feel guilty for feeling like this.
Thats why I'm not gonna speak to the person it concerns, well not right now anyways.
It concerns the two people I love the most. That sucks...
I feel left out.
They are great together.
Actually...if she was a little older I fear she would be better for him than me :(
And I hate thinking like that. It hurts too much. Cause I love her.
And I love him. Can't be without him...